Identifying Identity: Live The Process
This poem was written during my first year living abroad as I asked myself—for the first time—this horribly messy question: Who Am I?
I was prompted to delve into these murky waters when a co-worker made the bold assertion that I, in fact, had “identity issues.”
Sure, I’d chosen to dive into the deep end of the grown-up pool by moving to a foreign country for my first year of real-world adult living, but was I that lost and confused? Was there a red blinking sign on my back that read: Lost soul—has no clue who she is.
My blood boiled at my co-worker’s words. I felt that this person had sauntered onto my private property with a smug and arrogant grin. What right did this individual have to make such an assumption about my character? But after my indignant reaction simmered, I found myself questioning the elusive nature of Identity itself.
What does this massively loaded word even mean?
And so with much headache-inducing thought, my answer turned out to be this:
Identity
You are that lone wanderer
weaving through crowds and cobwebs,
seen and unseen,
day and night.
Remnants of your presence
lingers here and there,
felt in warm embraces of cosmic breath
too divine for words.
Solitude
has brought you knowing,
unless escape from expected paths
is marred by scars and sorrows
you long to forget.
You may know yourself best
unless trodden ground distracts you
from the ugliness of yourself.
Lone wanderer,
when you look into the world,
what do you see?
Do you see yourself and skies
in reflections of the lakes,
or
do dark black pools glare
of impenetrable unknowing?
May your white t-shirt be tainted,
torn and bloodied by self-assurance,
worn by waived expectations,
not cleansed or bleached
by outward approval.
Lone wanderer,
please be forever-true,
even when your dirt-stained clothes
blind others from who you know
yourself to be.
Keep drifting,
searching,
wandering,
committed to your own being,
though it be an uncertain chase,
being found in brief moments
of serenity:
In fresh dawns,
and sleeping puddles
and marbled skies.
Tire not.
Take deep breaths
and exhalations
of letting goooooooooo
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