To the man I love. We never dated. Meet only couple of time. We are not touch.we stalk each other. Trying to resolve this complicated status.

I think of myself as an artist a armature one a struggling one. But you will understand its not easy to be completely known to anyone. we all nèed little private space to be vulnerable to be weak to lie to have a grey spot. You watching my thoughts is suffocating at times at the same time only medium of communication also one way Which is unfair to me

As its already said I am in love with you. I want you to love me back. Its difficult for me to show my imperfections. but I need little place I need to pretend to be someone I am not where I  lie too my self..Knowingly it becomes hard for me to appear weak in front of you.

I don’t want to make it look like a struggle to push. Neither a drama. Instead of telling this to others. I Choose you first. Since I hate  over exaggeration.

I think, assume We both hurt lot of real world connections just not to loose each other. Where you hide them from social media. Which wont be easy I am sure.In my case I push them away as soon as they get close try to find place in my heart. It’s not easy to keep that place unoccupied .though emotional connection is important at the same time we all need some to touch feel and be physically present, laugh with.. who  Show up on bad day. We both dont do justice to them. In some way we use them by filling in as temporary substitute of each other.

We have come to a situtaion at this point I dont have courage to break the silence sit acorss resolve and see real you. No scope for honest Confronting. It’s time to move into our respective lives.

Not just saying it, I believe  more than me you deserve happy family life. By far what little I know we both had tough life. being too strong I know how important family is.It’s time for you to start a family if you haven’t started.And live happily ever after.

Its wont be easy. Probably most difficult thing I did till day…I will also accept it slowly..that’s one way we can help each other.I am not sure. How I will overcome this.