It comes and goes like waves on the shore
I’m laying here my hearts still so sore
There are some days, some better than others
I just wish I was the toast for your butter.
So I’ll wait and stew on your last message
I know you can’t help it but you leave me guessing.
Like the moon rising over a never ending sunset.
Pushing through my pain, pushing through the upset.
I’ll always be here regardless of what you do
It’s just not that easy being the only one for you.

I’m running on empty now, but this tank will. Never get low.
Still im sitting thinking and ill continue to grow.
It might be tiring, but just try stop me
Have a look around, ive always been watching.
Say what you like, I know it’s the truth.
Nobody else understands you, not the way I do.
Here I go, once more round the block.
You know I’m the only one that can be your rock.
I’ve known it’s not easy but please this I promise.
Just give it a chance, and nothing will stop us.

As you lay there, curled up in the covers
I push the thoughts out of all the others.
It’s stupid, jealous and i have no reason for this.
But when I tell my feelings they always seem to miss.
So I’ll stay here, push it down push it away.
My highlights are the weekends that you stay.
One day we will no longer be together at all
So we make the most of what we have until the pause.
You’ll never see this, but Fuck it makes me better.
It’s not that easy, even writing this letter.
So I’ll stand and watch you go from the distance.
There’s no more point to my persistence.
So girl good bye for now it’s how it should be
It’s not that easy being the only one of me.

Reading this back, some months later.
I feel sick and i’m fucking self hater.
I’m better than this, you’ve lost your control.
I’m turning off your one girl show.
No more pain no more thoughts of harm
Keeping you now at the length of my arm.
Its stupid you easily could have fixed this tell me you love me and that i am missed.
You’re incapable, whatever you do you
This is goodbye please don’t come back soon.
Its just not that easy being in love with you.

It’s not fair, I know you’re not to blame
It keeps getting harder to play this game
So I’ll wait, keep watching what you do.
It’s not easy being in love with you.