The deepest inner hurts result in loneliness, depression, trauma, but having someone who has been there in the darkness, to be a friendly ear, to guide you, and support you makes the road to healing seem so much reachable.” Rev. Annelize Lundall

I have been feeling really lonely lately, despite living life as we always did. Our life after Covid did not really change much as we were always somewhat isolated or alone as a family.

I realized what was missing, I miss my girl friends, the special friends to share my inner thoughts with, but somehow the connections just faded slowly. We were all so busy surviving during the past year, that we actually let go of the one thing that helped us survived during dark stormy nights.

Having someone that listens intently, that do not judge me and allow me to share the deepest emotions and heartache, results in a feeling that anything can be overcome. They were my anchor, my safe place and my go to “therapist” team.

The time I shared my life and inner being with them, I had courage, I saw hope and I felt supported. Looking back I see how they encouraged me despite the darkness I had to pass through, to keep my head high. To see my strengths, to feel loved and be able to breathe again. Sharing tears of sadness and despair, feeling hopeless but being able to see the light. Today I said, “Hallo darkness my old friend!” as I allowed the darkness to seep back slowly into my life, to become my friend again. Instead of reaching out, I hided, slowly crawling back into a dark hole, spending time alone with my own grey thoughts feeling lonely.

The perfect balance I felt with my girl friends were gone, the trust, the mutual understanding and freedom was lost. I am really sad, as I miss that dear connection. It feels as if a part of me is in hiding, as if one piece is locked away, dead and numb.

Today I reached out to those special girl friends of mine, thanking them for being there in my darkness also sharing how much I miss them. It felt as if a huge load was lifted, like the sun breaking through the dark clouds and shining bright again.

Now, I challenge you to reach out to that special friend today, say thanks for the connection, if it has been a while get the courage to call them, don’t delay as special friendships make life so much bearable.