A friend started micro-dosing every day in order to feel good more consistently, which opens an important question for me. Can we just make the decision to feel good all the time, or do we have to clear out all our shit first.? Is she cheating? Why do I always feel so bad after feeling good/connected? Is it a belief that I have to pay my dues for feeling good? Nicky Hamid just wrote that if our happiness is dependent on achieving something, that we will never be happy. Yesterday I started to feel good even though I’m still feeling a little bit sick, because I feel that I pulled myself up by my shoestrings – I went to sit and meditate with my tree in the morning, and then in the evening I did my first CG workout after Sinai. Is there some belief that we have to work hard in order to feel good/be connected to ourselves? I feel like taking these actions was important. I feel like making these little choices to eat well, exercise, stay away from people that aren’t good for us, stay off facebook, are important. But maybe I’m wrong. If I’m able to be in a high frequency like I was in Sinai all the time, then I will just make bad choices, like I did there in some instances. Or… is it possible that if I am in a high frequency all the time, I will naturally learn to do only what is good for me?