I feel so lonely
I look down at my leg to see what I wrote to me
Words like hate, help and empty
All scarred together to look like nothing
In particular

I recall drowning out emotions
Picking up the razor, wondering what the commotion is
Standing on a ledge of hopelessness
Urgent thoughts floating to the surface
I need a way out

Looking to you for consolation
But finding nothing but abandonment
Feelings tossed aside like something unimportant
A rag doll thrown against a wall of disinterest
Indifference

Falling, falling and not stopping
Where is my parachute of relief
Veins flow with envy, green
Of every strong, healthy, happy relationship that isn’t with me