The people around you heal and expand in their own unique way. I’ve seen this happen with my family, where as I come into alignment, they are finding theirs.
My sisters are all moving rapidly fast towards their own ideas of expansion. My one sister now has two bright children and my oldest is getting married for the second time and is just looking radiant on all levels. My expansion on the other hand is the expansion and strength of my aura for rulership.
As I know that getting what I’ve always wanted and in order to really indulge in it and make it last, I would have to have such a stable frequency, as I don’t want fleeting moments and instead want moments that that last forever, where transitions are very smooth.

I say this because my name means rock and most of my life I’ve been more like a rolling stone, chasing the high, where I was addicted to fleeing any emotional states of discomfort, including positivity. And so I know the unsatisfied feeling of instant satisfaction, even if looks pleasing towards society. I also know the stupidity of doing something you hate in order to get that instant satisfaction later on by tricking yourself through convincing your conscious mind that the idea of pain makes you a good person which you use to numb out your guilt complex with the endorphins that pain creates. The answer is not found in either of these examples.

For me so far healing has been about just sitting still and to allow myself to feel that it is safe and that it belongs here by getting in touch with the emotion of serenity.
Healing has been about me showing myself that safety is not found around the corner in the next town, but right here now. And if I can’t find it sitting still, I will never find it moving about.
I’ve had the privilege of having supportive parents who have indirectly given me the most valuable commodity known to life, which is TIME, as most people don’t have the time so stop and think.
Stopping is also not as easy as we think, as shame and fear are in hot pursuit towards the person who stops and faces the inertia everyone is running from. So you got to be ready to face the bull coming right for you and not flinch a muscle or resort to externals to numb yourself from these tactile sensations that whiplash your emotional body.

I agree with Osho that if you allow people to relax and stay still and they will quickly find something to do and get proactive towards something that is more in alignment with their joy instead of life feeling like a master with a whip who’s watching your every moment to see if you are working or being laze so that it can whip you into submissiveness.

I will create a place of rest for other people so that they can let the mud settle in order for them to see clearly and they will be more able to make the next move when it’s right for them. The best I can do is provide a platform of clarity, as freewill must be kept a priority, as it’s what keeps the flame of divinity flaming. Freewill is the oil for the expression of divinity. You throw the oil away and divinity is lost and destruction is soon to follow, but don’t fear as this oil is well protected by soldiers of divinity like a trojan horse.

Me maturing is not getting a house, car or trophy wife to make it look like I’m keeping up with jones of societies ridiculous expectation, but just sitting with myself unapologetically, that is my healing.
I’m not here to be understood, I’m here to understand myself and let other people think of me as they wish. I do not waste time chasing embers when I am the flaming wall.
I know there is no shortcut and I pledge myself to every brother and sister of transmutation, as I know the difficulty, where eventually their shinning and brilliance will bring me just as much joy, as it does to me. Nor shall not be envious of other people’s struggle, as I know and have felt the fibres of my own.

In deep oceanic reflection and contemplation, I am literally the philosopher’s stone.
I can see and recognize the lead in my personality that seeks to know the light of awareness, even in its protective shell that coats it with monstrous forms.
I can feel myself quarantined in a matrix for my own development just like an alchemist who sublimates a base metal inside a flask over a heat source.
I can feel that heat source, that pressure that squeezes all the fractions and cuts of my being towards my conscious mind for integration.
The shame, the guilt, the fear, O’ how do I know thee very well and like the story of the Tin man, Scarecrow, Lion and the witch, do we walk together down the golden brick road.
Often, I thought that healing was to tread over these odd characters, but it’s the feminine principle of Dorothy that has produced the most healing in myself. The principle has allowed shame to be there without trying to change it. That does things one cannot write about, but only experience.
With this understanding it’s like I can finally relax and not have to be someone else for the approval of conditioned societies untrustworthy ranks.

In my healing I’m seeing the ripple effect of my change in the environment around me, in a micro and macro sense and highlights to me the power and influence I have, and I like that.
Its portions its expression towards the divine masculine that is slowly coming out like some pre cum thanks to the power of the divine feminine within my being. I am thus the blend of opposites and my higher self on the lookout, is that alchemist, who will put me back into the forge if it sees a crack in the metal.

Thus, in conclusion, my whole life was planned for this event. My life is of real importance, and I can see that detailed importance and planning for my life. How my parents like ingredients are important and planned. My childhood environment that would set the stage for my life’s work and create an unconscious memory, where I know what it feels like to be a prince and have authority.

Living with my parents is teaching me how to micromanage diplomacy as living with your parents is a wrestling match of wills just like the 5 of wands in tarot.
Old vs new.
Thus, technique is very important in order to be efficient with my movements and thoughts.
The environment is like a training ground for a prince.
My whole life, if I reflect on it, has been about me learning how to rule myself when most of my life I have being running away of that responsibility.
My environment has taught me how to spot a traitor and keep them close and how to spot an ally and make good transactions for all parties.
Or has it been about my past lives bleeding through into this life and I’m just aware of such things, because of the bleeding nature of the quantum field?

The harder the ego, the hotter the forge will be in order to melt the metal, but stronger and more durable is the blade. //stubbornness.