I have been on a voyage of growth and discovery

I have been on a voyage of growth and discovery since around about 1998 although it started a lot sooner – I just didn’t get it then !!  always having been a rather odd child and super sensitive to environments-  people – seeing energy around things  etc etc I just assumed everyone was the same as me!!  in my twenties I explored every sort of therapy there was from aromatherapy and shiatsu to reiki – taking reiki degrees along the way and believing I had got the whole thing sussed !!  then one day while meditating briefly something happened that changed me and my life forever –  some sort of major waking up – I felt a strong zzzing feeling on the right side of my head and in my inner vision I saw a bearded mans face who looked at me and smiled and went.  I didn’t think much about it at the time except to wonder what the strange vibration from the top of my head was – but that – as it turned out – was the beginning of a whole new chapter in my life – in fact a whole new life totally!!  things got very grim for a while – my house started doing odd things and every time I closed my eyes I saw things/beings I had never seen before sort of hurtling through some sort of space towards me and it scared me so much I didn’t want to shut my eyes!  it got to a point where I had to man up or fold so instead of shying away from the visitations I faced up to all the odd occurrences and with help began to understand what was going on – it turned out I had just woken a bit of myself up very quickly !  I had always been a little uneasy of spirits and things that went bump in the night but I had to come to terms with this and learn how to help stuck spirits, clearing geopathic stress  and so on.   it sounds easy when I write it but in fact it was frightening and exhausting and it changed me in ways I had never dreamt could happen.   for several years I got messages and knowings without trying –  I saw energy I saw colour – I saw backwards in time and forwards I had many past life flashbacks.  then in about 1997 whilst doing some energy work with a couple of people in Glastonbury things started to change and I wasn’t getting things so well or clearly.  wasn’t sure why untiI learnt about the ascension path and in about 1998 realised I was definitely on it !!   this was when the physical stuff really kicked in – physical symptoms I had never experienced before – for years and years – I lost a lot of my abilities to access those of the highest spiritual vibration and felt lost and confused.  in the last six years I have become more and more alone as my parents both died, various other family members died or removed themselves from my orbit and three years ago my best friend who was also my husband died very suddenly!!  I felt I had been placed in some sort of spiritual isolation tank and up until a short time ago felt there was no kind of future for me that was filled with love and joy –  or any sort of knowingness!!  however, recently things have started to feel better as though a bit of me that has been gone for so long was coming back and last night I had a brief moment of feeling peace and connectedness and inward smiling again – and suddenly I know things are going to be ok !!    and – if anyone is at all interested – this will post will be continued at some time in the near future ………….

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