*Warning: naughty language ahead!
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I haven’t been excited over a man in a moment.
And I don’t mean the knee-jerk reaction kind of excitement.
The kind that happens when someone handsome walks in the door
Or pays you a compliment.
I’m talking the kind of excitement that sits in your bones quietly
But shakes you, nonetheless.
From your core, outward.
So with him you feel calm,
But without him you feel the slow burn
Of a deep fire.
So when my bones start to burn again
Over a man I can’t have,
I scream,
“Fuck”
Into the night.
Against my pillow.
Wishing it was his chest,
With the soft, dark hair
That I teased him for, but I’d never want him to shave.
And I scream,
“Fuck”
Again
When he texts me songs to listen to
And the lyrics say
He wants me
Even though his locked down mouth
Says differently.
Because we’re just friends,
As far as his partner is concerned.
And I’ve never wanted to be that woman
But this time I do.
Oh, what it is to understand a judged narrative.
Oh, what it is
To be on the other side of the script.
Oh, what it is
To scream,
“Fuck.”
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