I met a woman four years ago at a friend’s bridal shower. She approached me and told me that she was an Intuit. I was instantly attracted to her because I have been on a spiritual journey most of my life. There have been breaks because of work or diversions but most days I am aware that I am influenced most by what I can not see, hear, touch and smell.

We bonded quickly over our childhood experiences with feeling like we didn’t quite belong. Our time together was filled with conversation, food, prayer, meditation, and pain. We shared our thoughts on religion, politics and family. We also discussed art, music, food, fashion and nature. There was a beauty about our time together and it is to this day some of the most authentic I have experienced. There was nothing we couldn’t talk about and I confided in her my most intimate thoughts and feelings. I believe she did the same.

For four years we celebrated each other and shared our sorrows as well as our visions for our futures which we discussed on a daily basis. I’ve never been as connected to anyone in my adult life. We felt like we were sisters and believed we were soul mates on the spiritual plane. I loved this woman. I loved her boyfriend and, partner in life, as well as her dear mother and father. I never questioned that we would always be connected.

She is gone. One day she didn’t want to talk or see me any more. I had disappointed her and she said she couldn’t trust me. I thought it would be short-lived but it has turned out to be more than six months. I never told her how I really felt. None of that is important because I believe she knew.

The lesson she taught me was impermanence. Last year, in 2018, I had lost a number of colleagues and my work was trying. I turned 60. My mother’s health declined, my daughter began high school, and I ended a romantic relationship. Then, my beloved cat died.

I will always be grateful to this beautiful woman because she taught me that my spirituality is of value and important to my continued success on this earth. She taught me that the work I came here to do is what matters and not what my ego would tell me is important. She taught me to focus on my intentions and to not inhibit them with mulling over past failures. She taught me to live in the present and not worry about the future.  She taught me to manifest more quickly and precisely. And, finally she taught me that love is real and does not actually die. The status or our lives and relationships change and that impermanence leads the way to transformation.