Clearly, I’m not speaking the same language as some people. I don’t know how many times I have said “ Do you understand the words that are coming out of my mouth!”. Something must be wrong with me, why is this happening? All thoughts I had more often than I would like to admit. Now,this is the part in the story I give credit to my mental health training for getting me through with some sanity.  Is my circumstantial thinking impacting my ability to live? Are these signs from the Universe or is this what an Idea of Reference means on the mental status exam? Am I depressed? Paranoid? Those were questions I was asking myself more often, then again, I would like to admit. Besides, people only hear words translated into their own emotions, right? It wasn’t me, had to be them.

After a year or so of giving myself a mental health assessment everyday, and passing with flying colors, I started to accept that the people who weren’t hearing me right, didn’t need to hear me at all. Vibes. Good Vibes. That was it! My vibes were good, their vibes were bad. I could go all down the rabbit hole about vibes and communication, but I’ll save that for another day. So, problem solved right? Ha. Of course not. Although I had thought I could just stay away from those bad vibes, and to some extent I was able to do that. Then came those human tests. Most recently I had to go into an establishment of authority and I don’t play well with authority. Knowing this about myself and being the woke woman I am, I walked in with the mindset of just being calm, playing the game, it will all be fine. Well that lasted about 2.5 seconds because I am a woke woman, I can’t fake it anymore. My fire, passion and “you can’t mess with me attitude” shine right through the nice, calm, loving, good vibe persona I’m trying to convince everyone of. When I say everyone, I mean myself.

Bad vibes are needed. They can bring change. That is lesson. The darkness must come so the light can be seen. The Yin and the Yang. I could go on and describe how every religion translates this lesson, but honestly I don’t care enough to try to explain that to people who may not be in tune with the same vibes as me.