I am a woman, 54 summers old, single for life perhaps, yet craving a romantic union of the lasting kind.  Impossible?  No!  Scary as f*ck?  Yes.
Let’s move beyond the self-doubt, the very real fears of monsters and angels yet to come, and blast off into the future!
This sex desire just won’t go away.  I‘ve had several boyfriends, and none of them committed to me, and I didn’t ask them to.  I was afraid to set monogamy rules; we never conceived any children, and we hardly ever discussed the future.  What were we there together for?  Sex and loneliness.
I have learned to simply transmute this endless desire energy of mine into my own artwork, writing and business.  People aren’t trustworthy until I am trustworthy!
This is my first attempt at writing for Elephant journal.  Yes, I have known about it for years!  It’s wonderful.  I am an Avon Lady, a successful local artist, and a rural business owner.  I have one eBook published on Amazon to my credit, and experience in editing and proofreading manuscripts.
This is a work-in-progress.  To see myself as Undesirable is psychological pain no one should suffer.  I just can’t see myself as leading a sexless lifestyle.