How do you see yourself
When your reflection is haunting?

Genetic resemblances
Kept me at bay

Low maintenance with natural beauty
No makeup necessary
It was easy to stay away

Often skipped daily tasks of self-care
Simple chores like teeth brushing,
Cleaning up, and washing my hair

Noncompliance to look into the window of my soul
Made it easy to ignore any loss of integrity
None the wiser for the wear 

Decades of ignorance
Hardened my heart

Afraid to see my abuser glare back
I was told my eyes were so brown they looked black

Hiding dark family karma
Denying examination, I cut myself slack

But not looking hid the real me
Instead of the truth

Deep within bodily pain it lay
I had to become a sleuth 

A decade more, I started to peek
I learn that I’m worth healthy, clean living
I accept my ugly pieces
I breathe

With age and grace comes true beauty
Inner wisdom shines brightly

Now I review through hazel eyes
Lit by exposing generational lies

I love myself tenderly
To know that I’m worthy

To set boundaries and intentions
Uphold accountability

Embrace my family tree
In the mirror, I practice Maitri

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