What is independence? How does it define who you are? What if your too independent? How does it affect you, when you do ask for help? Why is it so hard to let people help you? How does it stop you from being more vulnerable?

As I think about those questions, I wonder what if I let someone in? Will they hurt me like everyone else has? Should I trust the people who want to be my friend? Ugh…. its so frustrating when you want to open up, but you don’t know how anymore. Is there good people out there?

I am not really sure if there is, but I would like to hope so. In my weakest moments I have been trampled over by people, who were supposed to love me as I loved them like friends, lovers, and family. In the proud moments I have reached my goals, there wasn’t anyone around, I stood alone. Like right now, writing my thoughts on this page, not really sure if anyone is reading it. I just need to say what goes through my mind, because its really crazy in there.

I am always thinking of different things, many different paths to walk.

So many things to achieve, undecided on which way to go.

getting lost in the dreams,

floating on the clouds,

feeling the stars,

all around,

choosing the direction of the wind,

blowing through the sky

believing in magic,

with the angels all around,

dancing with clouds.

Poetry i love it.

I got off topic, but I want to be able express myself. I can’t hold in my creativity anymore, its dying to come out. If I can express my thoughts on this page, why can’t I let trustworthy people in? hmmm I don’t need to be alone, and be afraid to reach out.

thoughts and thoughts

thats all for tonight till next time.