I know you’ve heard a lot of stories about how difficult situations change and improve people. For me, these real-life stories are impressive whenever I listen to them. Of course, I don’t know if this story you will read will end with a happy ending. Because I am writing this right at the beginning. But I can say that it created a motivation to push me to write this.
It started this Monday and literally, it’s shocked me. For the students, Erasmus is a very exciting thing. Especially if you have never been gone abroad. Fun fact: Yes, I am the one who has never been gone abroad. So as you can imagine, it would be an unforgettable adventure for me. But when I heard I couldn’t get a visa and have to apply online class due to the pandemic, it was very disappointing for me.

At home but in Erasmus.. What a joke!

I didn’t want to accept at first. But over time I get used to it. I believe always everything happens at the right times. And I said always wish the best.

Anyways, I remember feeling nervous and excited at the same time, the night before my online Erasmus journey started. When the lessons were started I saw teachers smile and it makes me felt more comfortable. Even so, generally, the school system they are used to is very different from the system that I am used to. Aside from trying to understand the school system, I couldn’t express myself properly when the teachers gave me the floor. Also, finance lessons were more complicated than I expected!

After the lessons, I realized how I sweated a lot. I was totally out of my comfort zone. For a second I really thought ‘what will I do now?!?!?’. I usually cling to breathing in such panic moments. Breathing makes me think healthily. And my healthy thought was that I was seriously behind them and that I had to improve myself in both lessons and language. At that moment, I realized that a person should train himself in such a way that he can hold on to life in different living areas. Of course, holding on to life is a metaphor here. But I have to admit that at the end of the first week, yes, I was kidding about surviving.
In this week, I recalled my motivation, desire to work, and ambition that I could not find in the life that I was used to and comfortable in. And I made a deal for myself; If you do not want to sweat that much again, notice your own shortcomings in your comfortable life, improve your vision and work!