Uncertainty is like a horror movie for humanity. Most of us prefer bad choices rather than uncertainty. And I certainly understand and agree with that. But (of course, there is a perfect moment for ”sentence of but”) What if your character blurred? What if you don’t know yourself as you thought?
Have you ever think a moment ”do I have sides that I don’t know or understand or maybe couldn’t control?” Maybe you think. But experiencing it, That’s a whole different thing.
After I get into spiritualism, I try to more aware of myself. I try to understand my feelings, my decisions, and my preferences. And for a while, everything seemed more familiar and It made me feel comfortable. Cause you know you. There is no threat. But of course, this comfort can’t last forever. Also as you know, the universe has a different sense of humor. For a moment, You can find yourself in a different situation. Far from comfort. Emotions you can’t describe. Behaviors you can’t believe you are.
Just at that moment, I want to ask you: Who fully understands herself right now? Some people turn to yoga, some to meditation, some to travel, some to art. For what? Of course to find themselves!!!
If you do not recognize yourself some period so what!? Don’t you understand this is all a journey! What we call character is the complex structure that will become clear on the journey. It is very normal that some periods are blurry. Being unfamiliar to ourselves for some periods is part of this journey. So I’m telling for those who feel blurry right now(me). Take a deep breath and enjoy things getting clearer over time. It will. I know. This is the rule of journeys. I know you want answers but maybe you’re trying too hard? Just have to allow it.
May you allow yourself?.. May I allow myself?