There are times when we are connected—you are connected to you, connected to me
That is when you are truly with me, because you are with yourself
There are no walls and we are naked with one another
Then there are times when you go somewhere
I can’t find you
I can’t help you
I can’t heal you
I can’t make you love the dark parts of yourself that make you do the things you hate most about yourself
I can’t put the words into your head to make you believe you are worth so much more than you are seeing right now
And in the past, I would have chosen to disconnect from myself
To join you, to be with you…to share your pain…to show my love
To punish myself for your absence
But I’m not going to do that anymore
I am going to hold space for you to go through whatever you’re going through
But I’m not going to make that about me
I choose to stay connected to myself
My joy
My worth
And I don’t know if
Or when you’ll climb back out
But finally realizing that I don’t have to follow
Is my freeing moment
That the best thing I can do for you
To not place my value upon a wobbly chair
But on the throne in my own heart
My own heart that will shine and beat long after we’ve lived these lives and the next
With or without you
Just like one day, you will learn to choose yourself every day
In every moment
With or without me
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