The last few days has caused me to do some reflecting.  Specifically concerning my  biological sons .Why you might ask?  I ‘ll get to that in a second .You see at the tender ages of 19 and 28 respectively they are well on their way into their life’s journey. Yet It’s not like I hadn’t been here before.  That is finding my self comparing my life at their age  and specifically to my youngest boy. You see at the tender age of 19 instead of listening to instruction,  not that I had much.

I decided I would do what I thought was right. You see there is a way that seems right to man but in the end leads to death. Sometimes in the literal sense and sometimes  its spiritual.  Unfortunately the built in excuse of a single parent household was quite convenient for my story . It was what set my story on a collusion course with the typical outcome in this familiar storyline. That is until God stopped it.  In retrospect though I believe the experience carved  into my memory bank just what I would eventually push against. It’s what drives me today. So , now to my over all point. Unless you’ve been hiding underneath a rock within the last week or so the Kyle Rittenhouse trial took place.  A  young white male  at the time 17 now 18 . A young man who killed two other white males and wounded another. A young man one year younger then my boy. So now, let me ask you what you’re probably asking yourself at this point. What does a white boy on trial for shooting three other white males have to do with my black son? Well , let’s see.  Other then  Kyle making  arguably a misguided decision. He did what a lot of young men  his age are doing and have been doing for quite some time.

He  made a decision without a strong man of integrity,  purpose and wisdom standing leading and guiding him in real time.  Perferably a God fearing man.. Iam not condoning  or condeming his actions although I do believe the intent of his actions was honorable.  It’s the out come that’s questionable.  You see many young boys or young men are growing up with adrenaline, testosterone , ego, pride and even good intentions.  The problem is without the proper guidance these natural and  otherwise honorable things can lead to a disastrous outcome.  Like a highly impressionable young boy thinking he had to be a man and fill in the gape that his dad left behind financially.  So he starts a life in the street just to help out but then becomes consumed with the streets(me). Or in this instance a young man because of lack of honorable male leadership, took it upon himself to stand up to foolishness. He decided To stand up for common decency while so called grown mature men did nothing. Sometimes themselves joining in on the  festivities. Grown men throwing and having temper tantrums.  Possibly unwise in his  decision but honorable in his intent. Especially considering we have  grown men throughout this whole situation refusing to speak truth to lies. They would rather walk and talk in stupidity, cultural pride,  biases and or  hidden agendas. They would actually rather pour gasoline  literally and  figuratively speaking on the fire instead of honoring their God given mandate to lead. Their God given mandate to lead by giving testimony to the truth. How does one give testimony to the truth? Its simple , by living a life that speaks truth.  What would have actually  happen if they were to lead like this?  Instead of walking in the council of the wicked . What do you suppose would have happen?   Would a few people still be alive today ? Would this young man again one year younger then my boy be on trial today for murder?  As I think about this young white boy and more specifically my brown boy I can’t help but to come to one collusion. They are essentially faced with the same choice.
It’s  the same choice all young men have to make . Do I walk  in stupidity, underminding the integrity of my father’s name (God & biological) ? Do I walk in acts that destabilized destroy or build?  Do I walk in selfishness or selflessness? Do I walk in truth or do I live a lie ? These questions speak to the consciousness men. It is suppose to speak to the innate design poential of men.  Our young men and boys just like most of us did ,are making decisions today that could lead them in many different directions. We should be ashame of ourselves for getting off our post and for most of us not getting on our post at all. I told myself a long time ago that truth although can be inclusive..it can include me .. it certainly still truth even without me . What does that mean? It means my hands may be a Lil dirty, from my past or even now but that doesn’t exclude my responsibility to speak truth to lies . Maybe just maybe and this is just me , When I refused to call a spade a spade ..letting my sons know what’s right and what’s wrong according to the  design order  of God, it required something of me .When I stopped hiding behind my failures and acknowledged them privately to my sons and publicly by speaking truth to the lie. Abolishing it everywhere and everytime I saw it. Even if it’s not directly effecting me.. Even if it’s being displayed in those that look just like me . Some call this judgement , so be it . The bottom line end all be all is that yeah our words should line up with our actions so that our sons will not only hear but see(truth)in real time!! Some people say if I do that then Iam living a lie. My response would be so you rather live a lie and speak a lie too? Stop lieing!! You know wrong when you see it especially if you are doing it or have done it .Speak truth to lies even when it contradicts the lie you live. Give our young men  a  chance !