This feeling I can’t run from,

numb from,

or even escape from.

Can’t give it to someone else,

Let them hold on to it for awhile,

While

I rest

Feels like there’s something inside of me that wants to get out but doesn’t know how

Can’t drink it away

Can’t sleep it away

Can’t even fuck it away

(Where even is away?)

I’m somewhere in between depression and anxiety

Tossed back & forth

Loosing my sovereignty

This feelings taking up space

Ripping through me like a wave

Coming and going without a trace

Why’s it always feel like a race

To heal

Try to sit on my meditation cushion & pray,

Pushin for this feeling to go away

Can’t sit in silence

The silence is too loud

My minds filled with nothing but violence

The tears run down my cheeks

Like a faucet drip

Drip

drop

drip

Like the sound of my clock that goes

Tick

Tock

Tick

Time stands still

Will

You please – remind me

What else is inside of me?

Who’s comin to save me?

I’m somewhere in between depression & anxiety

Tossed back & forth between these thoughts

Do you even

know me?

Do I even

know me?

Tryin to remember

There’s more than one member

Here

Thoughts are just thoughts

They aren’t even true

The only one that’s gunna save you boo,

Is you