Revived from the darkness.

Prayer, Gratitude, and mindfulness brought me back to life.

My mind was always racing. Trying to figure out what’s wrong. Why does a combination of anxiety and depression weigh so heavy on me? So heavy that it makes me numb.

6 months into this deep depression I was preparing to ride my Peleton and decided to take a 20 min reflection ride. I love these types of activities.  I wanted to see if it could bring light back into this dark world of mine.

Christine and her mantra IAM ICAN IWILL IDO lead me to develop my mantra:

I AM… strong and motivated

I CAN….be a balanced woman

I Will… surrender to God. Push forward with Life.

I Do…. show up and conquer it all.

This ride was the beginning of me feeling whole again. To top off that great feeling the next day God delivered a sermon to seal the deal. Or what church folks like to call confirmation. The sermon was about the word,  Entropy.

Entropy related to physics a thermodynamic quantity representing the unavailability of a system’s thermal energy for conversion into mechanical work often interpreted as the degree of disorder or randomness in the system

The degree of disorder and randomness in a system was me. My body felt a sense of disorder and randomness.  No structure just that tunnel vision of a routine.

After the reflections ride and God’s word I was slowly making my body feel complete again.

Prayer, Gratitude, and mindfulness brought me back to life.