I Have To

Find a home
Away from here
A home inside
Of me
Away from
All distractions
Away from
What I want to be
Away from my distractors
Away from  all detractors
Away from  the failed me
A home of insulation
Of resurrection
Of faith and commonality
A home of joyful interaction
Of peace
Relief
Tranquility
A home of joy
And patience
And forgiveness
Love
And purity
A home of naked acceptance
Of friendly curiosity
A home
Where I never
Feel the angst
Of unrequited love
Of rejection
Based on selfish motive
Of loss because
Of an
Untrue love
Lead me there
Take me there
Forthwith
Away from
All I’ve learned and seen
Away
Away
To  a brighter day
To a world
Unknown
Unseen
Til  now
And I pray
So fervently
Make that place
That home
Mine own
Make it now
I plead
Because
My need is urgent
Because
It is
What
I need
Because
I have to
Now
Lest I die.