Scary Steps to Peace*

rom last few days I have been thinking is it so hard to live with our self only. Why are we dependent on someone for own happiness? Why didn’t somebody taught me since childhood to love me first and then love someone else. To think about me first and then others.
It’s not about being selfish. All I could learn from my last one-month experience is- You ought to love yourself, care for your own self, respect your pure soul, make yourself happy first.
I need to be happy & content first, accept what am I. Need not to compromise on your wants. Since childhood we are dependent on someone or somethings to find our happiness or sorrow. I must come over this dependency to be happy.
All I could understand is go beyond your fear. And our biggest fear is to lose someone, that someone on which we are dependent to get love, to feel wanted, to feel needed.
I know this is scary, the scary step to freedom. Freedom from pain. Pain of not getting loved, wanted or needed. But trust me this scary little step is the only thing which will lead you to self-respect and feeling of free-ness. The ability to breathe, the aroma of happiness and the state of peace.
I am a woman, who don’t want to compromise. I have been through an extremely violent and abusive relationship from the love of my life. That scare and fear of being alone in this huge world was stopping me to go further. That stigma of being judged was holding me back to move on. That embarrassment of not being able to become a good wife was torturing me. But I realised my identity is not just to become a good wife. It is an equal responsibility of both men & women make a successful married life. Finally, I took this step to come out of that abusive relationship by overcoming my fear of being alone. And trust me it’s difficult. I will be sharing the actual fears, complications and self-talks which really happens when you decide to think for yourself. This is all I want to convey, just keep moving on, feel the fear, feel the pain but DO NOT STOP. Fight for yourself. Because ‘it’s your life and I am sure you don’t want to waste it’ We just get it once.

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