Hello…I am Brooke! I want to re-introduce myself. My name is Brooke and I feel as though I have been living a lie for so long. Life is not always easy, and instead of dealing with said scary, uneasy times, I would push them down to keep from feeling. In other words, I did not allow myself to feel my emotions. I was scared of how my feelings would be twisted by the people I trusted. I also have allowed other people to influence the way I feel about myself and this has given them control in my life.
FAKE
I have allowed “friends” who were never true friends to make me feel as though I am at fault for something by not speaking to me or treating me differently. I have lost much sleep over these people and the feelings of hurt, and now I realize this is not my issue and never was. I am letting go of the feelings of guilt and betrayal I have felt from people I thought had good intentions who “loved” me, and I am finally able to deal with the feelings associated with them and can move on.
PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT
I have been doing a lot of personal development in the last few months, and I am finally to the point where I am in control of me. What does this mean? Well, it means I am not allowing the words or actions of others to have any affect on me. I am putting myself first, as I should have been doing all my life, and not worrying about what anyone else thinks. I am freeing myself from the fear and anxiety of being myself, regardless of what others think. I am allowing myself the ability to live a true and happy life.
PUTTING ME FIRST
This has been needed for such a long time, and I cannot describe how amazing I feel inside. I can honestly say I love myself and all the beautiful flaws associated with me. I will make mistakes, as I am human. I am not perfect. I am letting go these unrealistic standards I have placed on myself for so long, and allowing the true, real, amazing Brooke to finally shine. I am taking control of my life, and speaking my mind, and I will not be influenced by anyone other than the people who I love very much and who are the closest to me. This journey has changed my life!
❤ BHL
“I understood myself only after I destroyed myself. And only in fixing myself, did I know who I really was.”
~Sade Andria Zabala
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