My Life with Numbers.

Around about 2006 I was finding my whole work/life direction just a little bit challenging. I was working as a Careers Adviser, with difficult clients who needed a lot of support and time; operating within the boundaries of my adviser role it was often hard to provide that sufficiently.

I decided to go for a psychic reading with a well-known professional, based on a recommendation from a friend. I just wanted a fresh approach to my situation. The session involved the reader drawing the colours of my aura (magnetic field around the body), chakras, and spiritual counselling. Your energy changes as you speak and think about different things, so the reader asked me about my general situation to see what colours changed in my energy field.

Unfortunately I haven’t kept the picture he drew, but I do seem to remember there was a fair bit of yellow, which signifies the intellect. It was suggested that I study other skills such as Graphology (the study of handwriting) and Numerology (the study of numbers). Neither of these ideas were particularly inspiring to me, so I just shelved the reading and struggled on.

This was also the year I was due to complete my Counselling Diploma and a Crystal Healing Diploma, so it was full on. I had bonded with a couple of trainees, one of whom lived locally and was a complementary therapist. She suggested we visit a shop near her, which sold crystals. It transpired that this shop was run by a lady who had written a course on Numerology. This lady also ran a school that taught her courses from this shop. So off we toddled to have a nice lunch and a visit to the shop. I kind of briefly forgot about what the reader had said, or how synchronistic it was that I had happened upon this connection.

When I arrived at the shop it was quite an intense experience. The shop was crammed to the ceiling with crystals, books on healing, how to give readings, aromatherapy, herbal medicine, and the like. I was afraid to walk down the narrow aisle, lest my heavy handbag knocked over some of the trinkets, dream catchers and jewellery which hung precariously from the shelves. There were boxes all over the floor; this shop would not have passed a health and safety inspection!

The owner was a pleasant French lady, with a beautiful lilting accent. I spoke to her briefly and she gave me leaflets on the Foundation and Diploma courses. I took them away and deliberated as to whether I should do anything with them.

Some time later I decided to enrol on the Foundation course. It was a different way of learning than I had experienced before. Lots of note writing at very fast speed. Hardly any comfort breaks. A small room with quite a few students all packed in. Very deep conversations about esoteric wisdom. Fairly serious.

I know now that my Personal Year back then was the number 5, which is all about change…. and that certainly happened that year.

I felt a bit overpowered by the course, yet still intrigued as to how numbers could help me to understand myself, or anyone else for that matter. So I persevered.

The next level Diploma course required a lot more commitment over a longer period of time. It felt like the right thing to do, so I just threw myself into it.

I felt like I was in the chrysalis phase here; just absorbing information in a liquid form. Sometimes I grasped how the numbers worked; sometimes I was just totally numb from the amount of information in the course that felt like it was working ‘through’ me. I looked at the number formations in the charts of those I was closest to, and felt overwhelmed by the incredible beauty of what each soul was learning from another. And at the same time I felt disconnected from everyone. I would drive home to my husband who would ask me ‘how was it today?’ to which I would either shrug, gabble at 100 words a minute to try to process what I had learnt, or burst into tears at the enormity of what I was processing. It was kind of ‘wow’ stuff. And kind of heavy stuff all at the same time.

I managed to complete the Numerology Diploma but I was too afraid to take the actual exam, as I didn’t feel confident to give readings. I kept my notes for quite a few years, but felt frustrated with the whole process, as I was sure that I was the only one on that course who just couldn’t get it. Everyone else managed some kind of interpretation of the numbers. But often I didn’t feel anything.

During this training I worked out my soul number, in other words you add up all the numbers in your birth date to get an overall number, which you then continue to add together until you get a single digit i.e. if all the numbers came to 38 you would add 3 + 8 = 11, and then 1 + 1 = 2, so the overall number, which represents your personality, is the number 2.

My soul number is 9 which comes from adding up 3 + 6, and 36 is called Wisdom from Experience. All combinations of numbers have a meaning and it intrigued me to see if there were any patterns in my life that repeated.

I was staggered to find that around 1971 our family moved to number 18 Ruckles Close (1+8=9), and then around 7 years later we moved to 531 Scarborough Avenue (5+3+1=9) and then 7 years after that I moved out to 9 Sutcliffe Close, then when I met my husband 7 years after that I moved to 315 Jessop Road (3+1+5=9).

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Some repeating 7’s there as well (in Chaldean numerology the name Carol works out to the number 7… also come to think of it, so does my maiden name!). Coincidence? I don’t think so.

The journey of my soul number 36/9 is all about learning from experiences, seeing higher possibilities and monitoring my levels of judgment about others and myself. This completely resonated with me, as I would constantly (and still do) look for new techniques in personal development to help my clients.

The 36/9 is also about going in deeply to find out what I truly felt about all these systems, and it wasn’t until much later on that I realised I needed to find my own way…no one person has a system that fits all. There are flaws in all the systems because human beings have flaws.

I sat the Diploma again as a fast track course, took the exam and passed as I was determined to get my certificate! I then went through a very personal process where I needed to get rid of all my old notes and work in my own unique way.

I found myself starting to stare at client’s birth charts and seeing patterns. I got a bit more interested in astrology which helped me to work out a persons specific gifts and talents. I then added to this by linking each number with a colour, which gave me a rounder sense of the energy, and also offered the client a healing tool.

I now find that Numerology is incredibly helpful if someone is really unsure about their direction. I blend it with other systems, and use it in all my consultations, to give practical advice to people in general.

Learning about numbers has also helped me find clarity in my relationships, which means that I can share that with clients if they are feeling challenged by a family member or other close connections.

So I seem to have accepted the numbers into my life. It wasn’t a fast process, but perhaps it was a necessary one.

If you are interested in finding out your soul number, your gifts, personal colour or a deeper understanding of your relationships, you can contact me at www.myinnerself.co.uk

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