Every lotus needs some mud.

Love could be easiest thing in the world if both partners were equally involved…and equally passionate. Life would be a breeze.. Alas, it is not.

I loved someone more than she loved me… and the more I tried to love.. the further she slipped away. The result was inevitable: a break up.

At 6 AM on a sunday morning she told me, it’s over…I couldn’t grasp it then.. but now after two weeks I have finished writing these few lines.

No mud, no lotus

I want to feel happy again, like I was before before meeting you. Carefree …and a vagabond.

With you I had some of the most wonderful moments of my life… but there was anxiety..a lot of anxiety..

..and you had little space in your heart and that was filled with uncertainty…I waited …and waited.

I got frustrated too.. and wanted to just walk away many times.. but I kept on.. trying to build my life around you… bad mistake!!

You say you don’t feel magical around me… but love so many things about me.. but those things don’t add up to love..

You are also not passionately crazy about me.. and we’re also not meant to be..I almost feel that these are my faults.. but they are actually faults in my stars!

Actually I never had a fair chance.. because yout scars were too tender… you loved someone too deeply and were hurt.

…you called it off on an early Sunday morning..I was gasping for air underwater.. but tried to look brave..i had to chew the brick of reality… but now i have somehow recovered… thanks to my masters (Buddha,Osho,Prema Chodron & Carl Jung).

Kristen, we have our journeys in life… and our souls have to soar and be free… but we’ll be stuck, hurt and keep bleeding if we don’t allow us to heal..

All I want to do now is to be healed…and also want you to heal.. our heart has possibility of endless love… let’s not throw it away…be like the lotus rising from the mud..and walk with our head held high in dignity..

Lastly, I think we have the fire but it is too damp right now for it to be lit..

Love, Kiran

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