I’m stuck within myself., my head, the thoughts dreams and visions created there. Been seeking to make a change for too long, and time is passing, year after year I find myself here, adding to the frustration. I’ve never known what my “title” would be but have only known what I like and don’t, what am good at and not. As a consequence I’ve gotten stuck in an unrewarding work life, and feeling like a tiger in a cage, bumping into the walls at every attempt to get out. From the outside eye it looks exciting, successful, such varied experience … as they say, looks are deceiving. I’ve long been unfulfilled, the promise of a paycheck is no longer enough. Work up until now has always and only been driven by necessary survival, keep a roof overhead and stay afloat out on my own. But it’s been a very long time since those scrappy younger days, and this mindset still lurks. Some of us don’t fit into the boxes we’re asked to tick off, people are more complicated than that, life is more complicated than what a checked box indicates. So I keep talking, reading, taking classes hoping for connection in a community of like minds; keep seeking guidance, inspiration, an opportunity, for someone to see that thing in me, to See Me and give me a chance.  Oh hear my prayer.