Let’s talk about good ‘ole G-O-D.

I’ve come a long way in terms of my relationship with God.  Being raised in a strict Roman Catholic family and spending many of my younger years going to Church and Catholic school, religious programming was ingrained in me.  It wasn’t until I came out as a lesbian in my early 20s that I started to question if I was doomed to burn in the deep dungeons of hot, torturous hell.

With that time away from God, and deep devastation from our breakup, I figured it would be a great idea to understand its true nature.

During that time, I met and befriended many people who felt (and still feel) a deep pull to God.  Some go to church and others don’t. Some pray, others manifest. To each their own, right?

What’s fascinating to me was to see how so many people still believe God is a watchdog, as if he is some man in the sky — almost like a creepy Santa — who has a naughty or nice list. Like if you curse, have same-sex relations, or throw your underwear behind the couch on a Saturday afternoon he will order a hit on you somehow.  We somehow end up believing that a bad Wi-fi connection or a slew of bad dates or an inconvenient flat tire is God’s way of saying, “Take that, horrible human!”

God is not an angry man in the sky.  God is not an external force you need to prove anything to or hop on a rocket ship to meet at an undisclosed location.  I am not knocking religion, by the way, or anyone who practices; however, it is interesting that there is a belief that even though God is loving, there are ‘rules’ set in place in order to be truly loved and accepted by God.

Here are some of the things I have learned to be Truth for me:

1. God is all loving. Whether you are gay, straight, poor, rich, or have some bizarre crush on the lamppost down the street, God loves you.
2. God is an energetic force that is invoked within.  You are the channel/conduit that God moves through.  You know when you have an open heart and you feel expanded, loved & whole and treat others the same? Yeah, that’s God working through you.
3. God is in everything.  Trees, plants, soil, and yes, even that asshole breeze that comes by and knocks over all your garbage cans.

Simply put, God is energy in motion.  Everything has energy, even the chair you sit on and the cup you hold in your hand as you sip your coffee.

It doesn’t take on a human form where it has the ability to form an opinion, judge, or hate.

God is simple. God is Love. And God is damn well not filled with chaos and confusion.

Only us humans are capable of that hilarious complexity and fuckery.

May you find your Truth of God as I have found mine.