He was too bright for her. She always felt inadequate around him. She felt like he deserved someone who was better than her. He would tell her every single day that she is beautiful. And slowly, she started to think she’s beautiful too. He was a social butterfly and had a lot of friends, she, on the other hand, had just one friend she was close with. He always made sure that she was never alone. Every time she felt a little too sad about things, he tried his best to cheer her up. He made her laugh so hard even when she was at her lowest point in life. Despite being polar opposites, they got along well together. She was an insecure, shy and moody person. He was a very confident, cheerful and positive person. Life could never bring down someone like that. His strong, unwavering faith in God always amazed her. His way of seeing things in life and his kindness gave her hope that there are good people in this world. It gave her the strength to live and look forward to spending a new day with him. They spent two happy years together. At the start of the relationship, she was a person who didn’t have much faith in herself. By the end of the relationship, she had become a more confident person who thought she was beautiful and didn’t need her boyfriend anymore to tell her that. He was definitely a positive influence in her life. And she was forever grateful for that.

Years passed and they both moved on, she started to date again. She met a few people who were wrong for her and those bad encounters made her question her self-worth again. She struggled to find the right guy and she couldn’t help but think about him from time to time. It was hard to forget the one person who stood by her when she was at her worst, after all. Was it him that she missed? Or the person that she was, when they were together, that she missed? She never woke up pitying herself when she was with him. She was happier and hung out with a lot more people back then. She hated people now and trusted them less. She always told herself that she would be alright again if she met a guy like him. A guy who will lift her up and make her feel adequate again, just like he did. She met decent people on dates, but no one really stood out to her. In the end, she decided to settle for a guy who listened to her. He seemed nice and used to cook her lunch boxes to take to uni. She felt taken care of and didn’t feel so lonely. She wanted to get a pixie cut for a long time but she was unsure if it would look good on her. Her new boyfriend loved the idea and made sure he stayed right next to her at the hair salon and she went through with the haircut she was always scared to get. The hairdressers at the salon thought he was a sweetheart and told the girl that he’s a keeper. She smiled and agreed with them. But the spark wore off soon after and she could feel that the relationship wasn’t what she expected it to be. She didn’t know how to break off a relationship with no good reason. She had previously dated men of questionable taste, except the ray of sunshine she was with for two years. She felt like she could keep this relationship going since he wasn’t a massive jerk like her other exes. They were together for a couple more months and a huge fight broke out between the two and they broke up. The guy told her that he wanted to break up sooner but he couldn’t because he felt sorry for her. The breakup didn’t hurt the girl, but his comment did. She didn’t have much to say to that. He was right. She felt sorry for herself too. How could she blame him for feeling sorry for her?

Surprisingly, she felt fine after the breakup, more like she was relieved actually. She didn’t feel the loneliness in her heart anymore. She decided to stop feeling sorry for herself. She started to tell herself that she’s beautiful, looking in the mirror. She stopped the negative self-talk she always had in her head before. This experience taught her that no one could fill the void in her heart. She wanted to feel whole on her own and didn’t need anyone’s validation. She realised that she didn’t miss Mr. Sunshine anymore, she missed the confident and happy woman she was after she met him.