There is nothing more tricky than living-in itself, living is conditional and with consequence. Most of us try to live a good life, this however is not the same as being good-being good and living good constitute differenr meanings. To be good according to soxiety (a society with anxiety) means being humble, serving others, being thoughtful and ready to be of assistance: basically being good is possessing good habits. Living good means living a life of privillige that bring you happiness, having access to excess. Now, a person living good can be a good person, a good person can also not be living good. The two can interject and coexist but are distinct.

To live and to be alive are also different. Being alive is the opposite of being dead-A person who is alive can choose to live, or as we sometimes like to say “Live it up”, meaning living a life of excitement or selfless abondon. A person can be alive but experience a state of ‘rigor mortis’- a stiffness likened to death.

This brings me to how everyday I question my existence by analyzing every decision I make and how that can have a rippling effect even into the future. I wonder about what kind of mother I will be, what kind of wife-will I be as prayerful and filled with motherly instinct as my mother, or a scholar like my father and grandfather (maternal). I like to believe I am a good person ( or at least I try to be) but living it up? I fence on that. Days, feelings and circumstances determine situation. Alas, we grow everyday.