I feel my eyes watering as l look at the client l am about to give an injection.To think that l had had a good enough chance in the last two weeks to cry for the relationship that had taken a terrible turn ,one would think l had had cried all the tears out.Unfortunately when you are still in the dark place and acute pain,not enough crying can snap you out of there .

The main part of me that l can profess to have been snapped was my awareness,these are the few points about myself l discovered when l had to pull myself out of the black hole;

• life will throw different roadblocks when its necessary
• the lessons we need will always present themselves when they are needed
• the importance of healing the inner child
• what codependency is and how it presents
• the different attachment styles and how they affect the way we love and operate in the world
• the strength in letting go and letting life be
• the goodness in acceptance of what is
• the power of meditation and proven results

I looked at the photos that represented us ,our friends and all the fun we were.I guess the was what hurt the most ,that no matter what the world would take us that picture will never be the same again.

Being able to sit with myself for the longest hours in meditation, counselling,Reiki and even. under a weighted blanket has taught me a few pointers;

• no matter what you do ,love yourself first because there is noway you can honestly love another if you do not respect yourself
• often we are taught to sacrifice our needs and not verbalise them.You are worthy of receiving what can fill your cup.l am still learning to talk about my needs without worrying about losing the relationship.
• when l have needs that l am denying how can l nourish the other?
• life is happening exactly as it shouldn’t might be not what you want but life always takes care of our destiny, the lessons ,the pain and the awakening only comes in the pain
• I learnt that the future is always a beautiful mystery and it is not my place to worry about what it would look like but l can only control my thoughts and reactions in the now ..not in the past nor in the future because those two places are unreachable today.