I am too tired to sleep

too tired to write, 

Bipolar 2 got me up half the night.

Writing down the meds and the interactions they take

got a heavy heart 

from making a mistake

I will always regret.

I had an outburst 

that took me off the track

and now I am afraid there is no lookin back.

I am steadily steaming forward

from A to B

and I am Bradshaw

that is me.

I am proud of the growth I am making

even as I make mistakes

but my heart is still heavy

cause something’s just not right.

This world we living in is toxic as fuck

and we gotta stay strong we not giving up.

Keep staying the course

and hope will remain

if I go back to my old ways

I will no longer be this steady stead.

I know I got this but it is just so hard

but nothing easy is ever worth a fight.

Fuck easy I want to do things right!