I am no longer interested in the instant passion type love,

The can’t stop talking, can’t be without each other, can’t even breathe type love

The loose yourself,

Abandon your boundaries,

Your friends,

Your own growth

Type love

I am no longer interested in the thrill, the rush, the high, the quick fast hits of dopamine

Not even interested in the dangerous, mysterious, even rebellious type love

Nor the temporary sexual gratification,

Of chasing pleasure

I am no longer interested in “maybes” or “Some days”

Of uncertainty and anxiety

Can’t even be interested in morphing myself into what I think someone wants in order to receive their love,

Type love

The trauma bonding, emotionally draining, repeating old patterns

Type love

I want the type of love that is sustainable, emotionally available and attainable.

The type of love that isn’t afraid to go all in, let’s dive into you, let’s dive into me

I want the type of love that expands rather than contracts in the face of insecurity, doubt, and fear

The type of love that says “I will love you through this”

“I will love you still”

I want the type of love that makes me a meal and dances in my kitchen,

That sings at the top of their lungs,

And laughs till their face hurts

That type of love that doesn’t take life too seriously

I want the type of love that sits next to me and doesn’t have to speak

That makes me a cup of tea and let’s my legs rest upon theirs

I want a slow type of love that takes time to grow, that isn’t in a hurry

That mature type of love

That whole type of love

That aging depth type of love

Give me that or leave me be