When I was a child you were scary to me.
You were charming and funny for everyone to see.
Behind closed doors your claws would come out, everyone would run and hide until you passed out.
You were cruel and cold with no love in your heart.
I craved your love, affection, and heart, incapable of love you hurt and abused. Your scent was of leather and booze. Even when you were gone the nightmares were real. The terror, the screaming, trying to fight back the tears, the crying at night is hurting my ears. You have stayed with me, I can’t shake you free, like a parasite you’re eating at me! The green eyed monster has taken a new form, he is more charming a bit softer a little more I adorn. Still cruel and cold inside this green eyedmonster knows how to hide. He’s more lethal because he disarms me. I lower my guard and he strikes me hard. Still craving his love and affection I don’t know how much more I can take! I am broken and shattered, pieces of me thrown on the floor. Why can’t this green eyed monster stop abusing me. Is there something wrong with me that I can’t see? Maybe I too should be cold and cruel, maybe then you wouldn’t hurt me like you do….